Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Little Dragon Girl
This is my friend Fei. I met her when I first joined the gym about two years ago? We hit it off almost instantly, because Fei is a HUGE fan of Starbucks. And if you are wondering about this entry title, it's because her surname is Long (Dragon in Chinese).Fei's not a very big girl, she's like, I dunno, 1.52m tall at most. But what she lacks in stature, she makes up for in personality (and vocals!). She is loud, and she is passionate about the things she loves (the gym, the coffee, Andrew). She was the one who pushed me to try out for the instructor's course. She's screamed, and yelled, and threatened, and cajoled me into sticking with it, through all the missed cues, and wrong choreography, and alternatingly passionate / passionless scripts.
We were pretty close for a period of time, when I was still under training, and was practically living in the gym. And then too many things happened, I gave up on the gym, I broke up with the ex, I guess Fei and me just drifted apart. Mainly due to me, I guess... I promised her and Andrew I wouldn't give up on the training, but I did. And then after the breakup, I just wanted to avoid too many questions. I assumed that mutual friends would choose sides. I was wrong. This is what she said to me on MSN today...
"... just wanted to say I never took sides and I dun think I shd.. there are reasons why things dun work out and I shd be the last person to cruxify another.. as I am not in your shoes I wldnt know the reason why things happen the way they did."
She was right, she wouldn't know because I chose not to open up. I chose not to take the risk of coming under fire. I chose to shut her and Andrew out of my life. I understand now that when you break up with someone, even though you may have to split physical possessions, friends shouldn't have to be forced to choose. I hope that even without the gym, and the bikes, and the muffins, and the beer, and everything else, we are still friends.
