Monday, July 17, 2006

The Longest Smoke Break I've Ever Taken... Lasted All Of Ten Minutes

I met the ex for a smoke the other night.

Nothing to it, just a friendly smoke, after all, I haven't seen her since I moved home... and then it hit me... we have nothing to talk about anymore. No more common ground.

That was the longest smoke break I have ever taken. It was just one cigarette, but it felt as though it took me five hours to finish smoking it.

It was so awkward, really awkward. The conversation centered about how busy it was at the store, and how much the customers were annoying me. No personal questions, no asking how I'm doing. I guess she doesn't really want to know if I'm happy now, I guess it did show in my face that I would rather have been somewhere else doing anything else.

Do I miss her? After all that time together, surprisingly I don't. I guess feelings once dead, can never be revived... and my feelings died a long time ago. Are we still friends? I don't know... as long as she can't accept that I'm happier with someone else now, as long as she refuses to accept my baby, I suppose we can't really be friends. Maybe I'm being a little unreasonable here, because we did spend a long time together... but if the tables were turned, I'd really want for her to be happy.

Until that day comes, for now, civility is all that I can offer. That and my well wishes.

Posted by jack at 11:34 AM

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